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[Aug. 24th, 2008|03:40 am] |
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ignorance is an infestation. |
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[Oct. 6th, 2007|03:11 pm] |
So much to say
But no words to convey
The loneliness building with each passing day
But I never get used to it, you just have to live with it |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 17th, 2007|10:59 pm] |
i just need a pack of smokes
vitamin water
and a quiet place to sit |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 11th, 2007|10:26 pm] |
till the end
wiith or without you. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 10th, 2007|03:47 am] |
hot damn im kinda happy.
oh wait i am.
be back on 18th |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 8th, 2007|03:43 am] |
its quiet here
just what i needed.
there was never drama here.
just what i needed.
everythings new again.
just what i needed.
its warm and im kinda happy here
just what i needed.
i still have a room.
even in the new house.
im glad i still have a home to come back to.
even if i fuck up in the end.
even if my friends leave me.
no matter how ive ruined myself.
the only constant
the only people who really care
and are there for me at anytime
is my family.
thats what ive failed at.
returning that favor and sharing it with my friend all day everyday.
as cheesy/corny as this may sound,
i think its needed more than anything
trust and selflessness.
persistence.
not so easy to achieve
but when it happens you cant help but smile. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2007|02:59 am] |
i want to be forgotten and i dont wanna be reminded.
i hate myself.
live and learn?
there is no way i should ever have beeen this way.
no fucking way.
fuck me. good person? that person died.
im worse than any of the worse people you know. fuck me. ii just dont want to be around people.
and id love if girls wouldnt find me atttractive. im not. '
atleast in my apt alone. i had solitude. i was not in danger of ever committing anything hurtful to anyone. the numbers keep adding up. atleast in my apt alone i couldnt hurt no one but myself.
for the people that believed in me i let you down. im sorry. to myself:fuck you.
what happen to your fucking morals kid. you were so zealous. you showed conviction. you believed.
you failed. and you will pay.
go to fuckin hell you opeice of shit you ruined me.
i wished a lot of things today but most of all i wished i wish i remained the same as i was a year ago.
goodjob kid you fucked up. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2007|10:12 pm] |
what have we become?
and can we beat this in the end? |
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[May. 31st, 2007|11:11 pm] |
fuck my inability
fuck my lies
fuck realtionships
people are horrible things
especially ones like me.
whatever good in me is drowned away
by problems i cant deal with
i hate school
i hate having friends
i hate having family
i only let them down.
i just keep fucking up.
i want to do something.
i will.
words are cheap
but for now theyre all i have.
action comes tomorrow. |
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[May. 25th, 2007|05:21 am] |
heres to progression.
a step in the wrong diection and 2 steps back to see what went wrong.
10 steps to see the horizon.
and a mile to see the whole picture.
inverse who i am into who i was.
although not quite the same.
experience. |
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